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It was my own stupidity I never talk about this as it's my own fault. My best friend tells me it isn't, but I can't help but believe that it is. It happened when I was in high school. This man moved in across the street and quickly inserted himself into my mom's life. They were soon in a relationship. I don't know what they discussed together but he knew that I couldn't wear tampons. I was a virgin and it hurt too much when I'd try to insert a tampon. So he began to "teach me" how to. He would try to insert one into me. One day he shoved his finger in me and said "see, it's not hard.". Then he began shaving me down there saying that there's nothing wrong w/ what he's doing b/c people have jobs doing this. So it's normal. I believed him that it was normal since people do have jobs doing that. Then he got lotion for stretch marks and would rub it... Finish this story...
Break the silence From the ages of 8-11 I was raped by my brother who was 16-19 years old at the time. I was threatned, scared and confused. I had never spoken a word to anyone. Anyone that knew us thought we were a happy family. I thought I was the only one. I thought it was a phase he was going through. I never thought he would do it to anyone else. I had done everything in my power to "un-attract" him to me...I gained weight, dressed like a boy, started playing sports...nothing worked. I held this pain in my entire life. We both had families, we saw each other regularly (I wanted to be a part of my nieces life). Then, after 23 years of silence, I hear that he was taking showers with his 4 year old daughter. We called the police and were told to question her. Then, I heard the most heartbreaking thing I had ever been faced with. It wa... Finish this story...
THE TEACHER.....THE COACH.....THE KID. For me my sexual assault was devasting. I was grromed for two years and assaulted after booze and possible drug was gievn me by my Basketball Coach who was also on of my teachers at my all boy catholic high school I attended. The process was minpulative and looking back now at age 50...I can only describe my SEXUAL ASSAULT as a soul , sexual , and emotional injury that has required many many years to understand. The injury was and is real. The loneliness, leading to aloneness; the embarassment and shame undeserved unwanted yet; very very real.The confusion long lasting, walking a Life like a KNIGHT in well worn amour. Like a Soldier hardened from War. Holding a Secret inside only to be shared with others that have suffered such an attack ! Amazing Grace,,, a fitting song...to be given as a gift fr... Finish this story...
Babysitter's Son When I was younger, I was being babysat by a family friend. Her son sexually assaulted me in the basement of the home twice, telling me that I would get in trouble if I told anyone. One day, he took me into a main bedroom on the 1st level of the house, where he was preparing a 3rd assault, when his mother walked in on him, and made him leave. I've never told my mother and father about this, and I don't blame the lady who was babysitting me. She had no idea there was a monster in the house. He was later arrested for child molestation, although my particular case was not involved in that trial.... Finish this story...
In the Park When I was eleven, my step-brother brought me to a park where he had arranged for a stranger to perform falacio on me. It was the most terrifying experience of my life and I ran home as fast as I could and scrubbed myself for hours. My step-brother threatened to kill me if I ever told anyone. I was emotionally and psychology paralyzed by it for almost forty years. Even now, sharing this is, it's still painful.... Finish this story...